Rough Night

Last night  a very rough night - I seriously considered quitting.  Today I just want to be by myself.

2 Months -

So two months of o soda.  Pretty good! Today I am also giving up Fried Food.  So long French Fries.

School is going okay - a little behind in ath, but hope to have that all caught up by Monday. 

Day 58 - Exam 1 for BIOS

Well I had my first A&P exam today.  It took a little over 2 hours to complete and I have to say - hmmm.  A little hard.  If I would have taken it in class with no book I would have failed miserably.  Thank God for small miracles.  I have to focus on my math class today as well, I have fallen behind instead of staying ahead in that class.  Oh well.  Plus at some point  need to write anoter article on some Med Errors for my CCN Class.   It will all work out.  Today is the last day before I have a HELL week at work.  I work almost every day for 9 days.  That's so fuckin stupid.

On a very good note I don't have any soda in me!  LOL!  I'm thinkin chocolate or liquid caffiene may be what I give up around day 60.  I've got 2 days to decide.

Day 51 - Busy but good.

Had a CT Scan of my head yesterday to see what's going on.  The great part is, is that I got a CD of the images so I can look at my own brain.  HOW COOL IS THAT!  Of course at the moment I have no idea what I'm looking at, but hey I will.  I also met with the Education department at SCH to start taking a course on EKG through them.  Free (well I've got to buy the book for $40.00 - UGH!)

Anyway - all is well.  No Soda.  Thinking of cutting something else out at day 60, but not sure what.  Maybe chocolate.  We'll see.

Day 47 - The Start

Goal 52lbs

No Soda -
Soon to end caffiene drinks all together.

Day 40 - Doctor Visits

Today was a day of Dr's visits.  I went to the Dentist first, then to my new primary Dr.  Dr. Kelly.  He seems like a pretty nice guy. 

He wants to do a CT scan to see why I am having my headaches.  Where the headaches aren't as bad as they were, they definiely are still there.  He thinks it might be a sinus infection.  He also confirmed that I'm grining my teeth and told me to buy the mouth guard and wear it.  So I've got to start wearing it. 

The dentist said that I'm looking at about $2,800 for my tooth replacement.  Which means I need to pick up one more day a paycheck to pay for it.

Also got my blood work done for the LifeWorks so I can be a part of the gym at work.  WooHoo!  2 times a week - minimum.  I can do that.

No soda, although today of all days I really could definitely have used one.  I really thought about it, but i's not worth the loss.

Day 37 -

No Soda Today.

I'm struggling right now, I'm sometimes feeling that it would be best if I just moved to TN and lived on the property down there. 

Day 33 - No Soda

Not much to say today.  No soda.

Had my first A&P class.  It was fun and I think I will like this class the best.

Day 31 - Study Study Study

Well classes opened up today.  This is going to be a tough 8 weeks, but I'm excited. 

Jason taught me a new way of studying today as well.  Read and take notes at the same time.  It's immediately beneficial - after I finished reading the first chapter I couldn't answer any of the quizes.  Then I studied the second chapter by taking notes - at the end I could answer all questions.

No Soda.

Day 28 - 4 Weeks

So today marks the 4 week mark of me not having a soda.  Really the biggest thing I miss is the convenience, it was much easier just grabbing a Diet Coke out of the fridge, but this does make me think more before choosing a drink.

I started on Midnights last night.  It wasn't busy and the guy I worked with didn't wan to do all the baths at once to get them out of the way.  We did 5 total, but we could have easily had them knocked out by 2:30am if we would havejust done them all at once, but we did 3 then went back and did 2 more at 4am.  It was kind of silly if you ask me.  We also had a team meeting this morning, strictly RN focused, not sure if I needed to attend or not.

Anyway - well I better start getting ready for work again tonight.  Then I have 4 days off and school starts next week!  YAY!  I'm getting excited.  The Algebra class is a work at your own pace, my plan is to be done with it in 3 weeks.  We'll see - LOL!

Day 26 - Student Orientation

Today we had orientation for school.  Only a few guys there, none of them cute - LOL!  But it was a good session all in all.

It was informative, and I can't wait to get started.  I hope I can keep this momentum going.  I also went and picked up the Jeep from LincolnSquare Automotive - $1,532.  UGH!  This isn't a picture of my jeep, but I it's almost exactly like it.

No Soda - not really wanting it much.

Day 24 - Movie Day

We went to see "Catfish" today.  It was okay - it made me feel like a bad reality tv program that I just wanted to fast forward through.  Where I did enjoy it, I identified with Angela, pretending to be something your not.  Maybe that's what made me uncomfortable after all.

Still have a headache!  Now I am starting to worry that it is more than just a headache.

No soda today.

Day 23 - Not so bad

Well I skipped a couple days on blogging, but not because I was too busy.  Last night I went to bed at 530pm and didn't get up until 900am today.  I had a headache that was just killing me the past two days.  So I took some NyQuil last night and pasted out. 

Took the truck in on Thursday and found out its going to cost 1200 to get it fixed.  UGH! 

Oh well -

No Soda the past few days.  I did stop at Wendy's after dropping the truck off and they gave me a coke instead of a Hi-C.  I almost went ahead and drank it, because I didn't feel like going back up to the counter.  But I thought better of it and went up and got my Hi-C.  Very glad I did.

Day 20 - Horny

No Soda -

Need to have sex, but at the same time don't want to.  Kind of weird.

Day 19 - CNA

So for the most part I really enjoy my job.  There are a few things that annoy me - the standard, dealing with mean patients, cleaning up poop.  But I love when I can talk to a patient who is upset with everyone else and I can get him/her to calm down and relax, and know that I am listening to their concern. 

I start school for the RN program in a couple weeks and I am very excited.  I think I've made a wise choice.  Looking forward to the next few years of learning.

No soda today!  YAY!  Although I can't help but grind my teeth and get these freakin' headaches!  Hopefully ending soon!

Day 18 - Not my Job

I absolutely hate when people say, "It's not my job."  Everything is your job!  Why can't people just try and do their best at whatever they do. 

No Soda tody.

The picture has nothing to do with the post - just thought it was freaking amazing!

Day 17 - Emotional Day

The Chicago Marathon was today.  I so wanted to run it this year.  So far every race I've wanted to run I haven't been structured enough or committed enough to do it.  I'm not sure what's going on with me.  I love to run, I feel so much better after I do it, but I can't just seem to get on track.  I run for a month or so and then fall off.

I walked Bertie this morning just as the first part of the Marathon was going down Broadway.  The guys in wheelchair bikes went flying by.  I was overwhelmed with emotion, I was so proud and jealous at the same time.  Here these guys are handicapped and they're not letting that stop them.  The drive and dedication, it's amazing. 

I also am feeling very blue today - I know the reason.  I'm not connected to God right now.  I feel so far away from him.  I've got so much going on that if I'd just put it in his hands everything would be fine, but OH NO - I got to handle it all.  UGH!

No Soda today - God please come into my life again.  The invitation is open.

Day 16 - Lazy Day

I sometimes have concerns that I am not structred enough to handle a heavy progrm at school.  I waste a lot of time, just playing on the computer.  I wonder what I used to do prior to the computer, we're only talking 10 years ago when I had a home computer, but rarely was on it because it was dial up.

So today I spent the day finisihing up my stuff for school and work.  Choosing a doctor, etc.  It's so much fun - LOL!  I have to get a physical for school, but at the same time I need to change doctors with work.  I'm kind of in a weird spot, go to my old MD which will cost me a lot of money because my isurance that I chose this last time with SAM was the wrong kind.  I did the 80/20 split instead of the PPO, so when I pay for my physical I'll be paying probably the whole price of the office visit.  UGH.  I meet with the financial guy for school on Thursday, and hopefully he can guide me if it's okay to do the physical in November after my new insurance kicks in.

I restarted the Vyvanse today as well.  I felt like I wasn't really focused anymore, so I thought I'd better try and see if now that I have been off of soda for more than 2 weeks if that will make a difference with the headaches and teeth grinding. 

Day 14 - Just another day in paradise...

All is well on the home front.  Had a bit of a headache when I got home today, so just took it easy.  Now I'm relaxin, looking at porn and dirty ads.  LOL! 

I'm lucky I'm not better looking or have a big dick or bubble butt.  I'd probably have HIV by now and be dead.  As it is, I pretty much never have sex.  Lots of wanking though.  Thought I'd be over it now by this age.  LOL!

No soda today, but did make some yummy grilled cheese that stunk up the whole house. hehe.

Well start on the floor tomorrow - little nervous, but ready for it.

Day 13 - Beer

Drinking a lot of beer here lately.  Some of it is relaxing, some of it is because it's an easy way to drink and not drink soda.

Feeling lazy right now, it has a lot to do with my not taking my meds, but I'm thinking that might have been what's causing the headaches.  Not sure why that side effect would happen now, but it was to much for me to deal with.

No Soda - that's the main thing.